Thursday, May 18, 2017

Alzheimer's and Toes!

Well what do Alzheimer's and toes have in common?  They are both part of my existence. See my daughter told my wife, I am not sure when, as they went to the gym one day it looks like dad has another toe in the water.  Her way of dealing with my dementia and it's progression.  Now I know why my toes hurt all the time, they are not sure what they are supposed to be doing, YEAH!

I must say that the last 6 or so weeks have been very difficult for me.  My head has hurt, my brain has gone off track and I have been outright scared.  See there was I time that this person loved change, he lived for it, he made it happen.  Now no way leave things be.  Do not move a piece of  furniture or painting, it does not play well in my world.

We are moving out of state.  We are in the process of closing on a home in Nevada and this is a major change and has tooooo many arms to it.  Getting everything in line has been a monumental task for me, since the wife works, I have been doing as much of the leg work as I can.  It has literally drain that ½ of a brain cell that I have left.  My brain is presently on life support which good old friend Alzheimer's takes great delight in.   It takes every ounce of consentration that I can get together to work on things and leaves me totally exhausted and really lousey to be around, especially as any type of company.  I need a robot to handle all of this so I can get back to some assemblance of order or thought process in my life. This physically has drained me as well, I am no longer wired to do this type of work and keep it all straight and not be irritable over things.  Unfortunately or fortunately the only way for me to get away is to leave life.

From all of this I have seen in myself a decline and I guess it was going to take place no matter what, after all that is what Alzheimer's does to you.  It sometimes quickly takes you and then other times it is like a cat playing with the mouse it has caught, takes its' time and slowly breaks you down.

I hear that antibiotics of a certain type now cures Alzheimer's and other forms of dementia, as well as drink this and be cured.  Snake oil peddlers are still out there spreading their bullshit and the sad part is that people soak it up and drown in it.

Enough of me, I hurt need drugs, happy drugs or jelly filled donuts.

God Bless and Keep You and This Country of  Ours!
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