Wednesday, December 07, 2011

My Life and Times With Alzheimer's.

I havenot posted is sometime. I have not been around for sometime. My brain has been on Jupiter and I on Pluto. Last few weeks have been very trying and uncomfortable for me.  I am not used to being sick alot, but I guess I have no choice in the matter. Also  have become more i guess you would say going in different directions while triing to go forward. Things are finally catching up.  I am getting more and more losst in each day, for get talking to people that is becomin a chore. I still can come here and tell you how shitty it is getting.Iknow that we hada howuse full on Thanks Giving and I have been not with it since then at least. We are dog sitting or I guess we are seeing if we will be keeeping my one daughters dog for a whilce since the are moving. Just another thing to get under foot. So far thisis becomming a rather crappy holiday season, and it is nobodies fault. It is just my constant companion Alzheimer's moving in the heavier furniture for its final push however long that may take.

To my friends in Israel, you asked for my father and mother's names well real hard on the father, Joseph, my moms name was Muriel.  Both have been gone for sometime, my mom over38 years and my day close to23 years. I have been very touch lately by those in other countries that have written me and I am glad that they are part of this family of ours.

I want you to know that Yolanda Sanmartino who was in the HBO Documentary is still alive and with us and of course me. We are the only tow left from Memory The Loss Tapes, and at least two of those fetured in the Caregiver part have past. Friends keep me posted. Out of 10 people seen and spoken of in the documentary only two of us are left that I am aware of. This show was done in 2008 and released in 2009 mid year. So in that short period of time 3½ years, eight have passed and most all in the 8 year or less time span. I keep being told how this disease affects people dirrerntly and I am aware of that but it still claims us when it has finished us. But what sweet freedom afterwards.

Everyone says that there is nothing good about Alzheimer's or other forms of dementia, wellI am here to tell you that it has put me at peace about dieing and that is good, it also is starting to rid me of not only good memories but many of the ones that causea great deal of pain and let me tell you that is good.

Well my head is staring to wander and hurt, take care till next time.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!


Anonymous said...

Joe, thank you so much for giving us this insight for what it is like for you. It's indeed invaluable. My mother had Alzheimer's and I did see the benefits when she lost her bad memories. What a blessing. Diane

Steph NY said...

I'm always amazed at how you can still come here and share after so long. You've been blessed with more time than others. God bless!!!!

Clara said...

Oh Joe. I am so glad you are at peace with dying. To me living with this disease would be much worse than leaving my earthly home. Thank you so much for your honesty. It is humbling.

May God continue to bless you and your family.