Thursday, June 04, 2009

Through The Fog Comes Anger.

I have beeen reaing some of the blogs I follow this morning, which I can do from inside my blog. I get disturbed easily, especially by those in the "Medical Practice" and what they try to push. These are the very people (not necessarily the ones I read) that have told somany that live with me in theis World of Mine, that we were ok, just anxious, depressed and absent minded. See we did not fit in their fuckin little box, we did not adhere to pages 89-101 so we could not have any form of dementia. Now some of them have joined us in this world of ours and are bitching that people say they cann't have it because, THE BOX, is square not distorted. Mean this may sound but, you diserve to hear that crap your profession spit out at me and thousands like me. I make no appologies for letting you know how I feel, you see my life is worth just as muchas yours and I am loosing it more and more each day. It is harder for me to talk, walk and maintain train of thought in a conversation. I even forget who the people are around me more now. Probably by this time next year, if I am still around, my body will be here, but I will not. Alhziemers is doing its job on me and having a good time at it.
I saw a youtube asking fatso Oprah to help. This woman is only interested in her money and famous friends that may have this disease or know someone that does, than she does a show on it. It just discusts me to beg such people. It is us who do these blogs and what HBO did for us that is going to make the difference. Yeah the baby boomers are getting worried, WHY?, because a whole hell of alot of them are starting and will joine us here in the World of Forgetfullness. Where we these people when we cried out for help, toooo busy to hear us.
Wait till you look at your wife or children and have no idea why these people are in your house and what the hell do they want. Then the old mind comes back and you know you left, you want terror there it is. Come walk with me in my World and see how brown the grass is.

God Bless You & This Country of Ours!!!


Cyn City said...

You are a quite eliquent writer Joe. Know that anger is passion and passion is the driving life force in us all.

God Bless

Anonymous said...

Sometimes the truth is not pretty and neither is this disease and what it is doing to you and my mom. Thank you SO much for sharing all of your thoughts about it and your walk. May God's peace and blessings surround you and your family.

Colour.Beauty said...

Thank you for sharing your experience with Alzheimer's on your blog and the HBO series. My mother, a former journalist, has AD but she no longer sends me emails or writes me letters. She has no insight into her disease.

God bless.

tksinclair said...

Reminds me of the first self help book I can remember seeing..."I'm Okay, You're Okay" Well, you know what? We're not all "okay" you medical SOB's. Medical "Practice" is just as it sounds...practice.

BTW, I hope you never make apologies for telling we minions here how you feel. That's why I come here. To get the "real" answers from your experience not some gobblely gook a professional is spouting from a journal they read. This is the real deal and I hope that never changes. It may not be pleasant to read or hear all the time but it's real and from what I've learned about you in the short time I've been reading here Joe is you'll tell it like it is, the good, the bad and the very very ugly.

God Bless you right back Joe,

Terri, from Oceanside