Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Hello

just a note to say i am still here.  my days are shorter with sleeping a lot. have reduced meds. my brain is not lear on what to say all days seem the same, nothing seems to become any clearer  i just do not know what it is that i want to do anymore, wife leaves things on the calednar and well who the hell looks at it not me. I cannot remmmeber one moment to the next. my sense of humor is also leaving. You know i get upset and then am told to calm down and what i did or said is wrong. pisses me off. I feel like just not talking anymore, hell things do not come out right and then i get those looks, you know them you have given them yourselevs me too. I am starting to feel that this is my fault, although it isnot. It is just hell inside this mind of mine and growing worse by the day. With those of us out here telling, yelling, being gentle, when the fuck do we get heard. screw the rich and famous most of us are regular folks and our stories are important, i think but mainstream does not even those orgs that are supporedlly their for us.

take care and be good to yourself.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!
joe

5 comments:

Inge said...

Thank you Joe for you reaction in my blog: it makes me aware of things like 'talking with my dad' instead of 'talking about him' which I sometimes forget unfortunately .....
Wishing you all the best!

NewKidontheBlogg said...

It's in the moment, Joe. Enjoy each moment. Enjoy an animal. Enjoy an apple. Enjoy being with someone. Pray always. Rejoice always.

Hugs and prayers,
Carol

JUST A MOM said...

BIG HUGGS

Pinkladydana said...

Hi Joe, I think you are incredibly brave to post your true, very drastic condition since I last looked at your blog. I think you are in the same stage as my Steve, because the neurologist said plainly that I didn't need to give him any more meds in late stage. Steve also sleeps several times a day dspite 10 hours of sleep a night. That makes it hard to keep him hydrated, which hurts his mobility and balance. God bless you and take care!
Dana

Anonymous said...

Joe, I can't say I know how you feel. However, I have a slight clue. You see, I suffer from depression, and in a way, I feel like my life is being taken over by something that I can't control. In fact, like you, I sometimes consider taking my life. However, the difference between us is that depression is treatable and can be maintained. I want you to know that I am truly thankful for you. After watching your HBO special, I've decided I'm going to get help, and I'm going I be happy. I'm going to live for those who can't. Thank you, Joe. When both of our days come, I look forward to seeing you in heaven. P.S, in case you weren't aware, in that place, you won't be limited by a disease. God bless and take care.