Tuesday, April 03, 2007

It Has Been Awhile

I have not posted is ome time now. I keep forgetting two. One of my dearest friends recently losst her farther and I forgot to send her my sympathies. I stop one of my meds and that was a big mistake, thoought I was dying, but apparently God nor the Devil want me at this time. Life is geetting a little more confusing and frustrating for me, I don't even answer my emails the way I used to. I feel like a captive in my own mind, body and home. The need to lash out grows stonger each day and is becoming a little harder to manage day by day. Part of this is the disease part of it is myoun defects of my character. Do not know which is becomeing the more dominate part. I have been alone in life, but never felt lonelly, I now do. There is sadness in my sould and being and the tears and emotions come more easily. It seems being loved and cared for does not matter all thaaat muc anymore, because I am solwy starting not to care for me or this life anylonger. Well enough of my pitty party, life goes on, until.

God Bless You and This Country of Ours


Anonymous said...



Erwin Erhard said...

Hi Joe,
My name is Erwin, I used to work with Lynn at Ricoh. My mom suffers from Alzhiemers too and is in stage 5, nick named, "The Long Goodbye"
I just wanted to say, "thank you" for putting out this blog.
Your blog has helped me understand what my mom could never communicate to me or anyone else in my family.
I hope you'll still keep writing because I will be reading every entry you make.
Don't give up hope, it's all we have.

Take care,

Lynn said...

God or the Devil may not want you at this time but your wife and family do. We all love you. And when the time is right God will welcome you home.